.♥.♥.cry me a river and drown in it.♥.♥.

alright so u can totally kill me for being gone so long but i cant help it..

so... i was with alex... T.T and i should have listened to the people around me. i fell for someone who would never fall for me. and that was a completely stupid thing to do. i care about him a lot and think he is a really sweet guy but... we are really not meant to be. it took me a lot of heartache and loss of friends and closer then friends to realize that...but i finally did...

however... that doesnt matter anymore because i have gotten back with mira. i never lost all the feelings i had for her and she waiting till the beginig of june to ask me out and i could never be happier. i love her with all my fucking heart and know she loves me the same. everytime im with her i feel like just never wanting to die and just wanting to live forever in her arms. and no, i cant say that for ANYTHING in my life.

we've loved eachother for a verylong time and i dont wnat to lose her again, plus im tired of being broken down. and i know she will not do that to me. shes the most amazing PERSON i have ever met and gone out with and i want to spend the rest of my life with her.........so i asked her to marry me... yeah thats right.

and she said....

YES

so when she turns 18 i am going to marry her! im so fucking excited its not even funny. i love her with every fucking bit of my little piece of crap heart and would give her the universe if it was possible to be gathered by such a small person as me... or by anyone for that matter. she is my EVERYTHING and im afraid that i would die without her.

try to take her away and i will kick ur ass!

im living with my dad now due to the fact that my mom and myfamily were having problems. everyone wants to have a new start now so i am here where i didnt want to be. i mean... its my senior year... i dont want to start new at a new school in a new town.... but i have to. the good thing is.... my baby girl is only a half hour away! i jsut saw her today and stayed at her house and it was amazing.

so yeah.. ive gone through a lot of couceling and am on two new meds! go me! -.- but hopefully it will all be worth it in the end. i wanted to go back to my old school for the rest of the year after im 18 but idk if i want to now. i dont want to leave my baby...

anyways.... so thats where ive been and wats happened. kinda. talk to me?